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fLashBack >.<

Filed under: me~ — ammarhabibahlovelavender at 8:33 am on Friday, December 30, 2005

assalamu’alaikum to all readers!! (erk.. still di awang2an.. ahha)
erm.. flash back… first of all… flash back.. adey.. tadik byk sgt nak letak…
hurnm… ape eh? jap.. *thinking*
oh ya… aku dah catat rekod of the year. ahha… bia aku tulis rekod2 baru aku taun nih… hari tu, aku lipat kain sambil tgk tv, siap! hoohhoho.. xpenah2 aku siap b4 this kalo lipat sambil tgk tv… second… aper ek? aku ape? erk… xsure the second… tp yg latest.. aku cuci longkang. erm… actually tak berniat pon nak cuci longkang. tp hari selasa rasanya… rasa tension gilak~ so pagi2 tu lepas makan… ntah. aku amik ape2 yg perlu tuk cuci longkang. tergerak ati. aku… actually hurt sket the nite b4 that mornin. trasa ngan friend… erm.. aku kerjakan longkang tu habisan. tapi tak sempat abis, my mum muncul di pintu blkg tu. "yg awak cuci longkang sini tu buat apa? longkang sini tak perlu. longkang sbelah sana… and bla.. bla.." hehe.. so aku pon stop. esoknya aku pon cuci longkang yg ptt dicuci. haha…. am i good? tension wat keje. hehe… entah. best plak. so, sapa2 yg perlukan pekerja tu, bleh la cari aku bile aku tension. haha.. tak tension masa sakit ati ker.. bleh la. pastu aku hit the road. sbb aku baca readest digest yg tahun lepas ker last two years… ade tuleh. cara2 release tension. hit the road, aku pon hit the road. ade la 1 km lebih kot. round2 kampung. hehe.. tgk budak2 main kalo ptg. kalo pg, tgk pakcik makcik mula kluar rumah. bile pk2… wat pe la aku nak trasa ngan kawan2 aku tu. dah ler sebab tak jelas. nak buruk sangka wat pe la… bodoh je rasa bila fikir. buruk2 sangka… silap hr bulan jatuh dosa atas kite plak. btol tak? eheh…
erm… ketakutan aku terhadap satu perkara yang tidak pasti tetapi mungkin berlaku bila2 masa mengejar aku lagi… beberapa bulan lepas benda tu kejar aku… kalo korg tau ape ‘benda’ tu.. korg pon gentar. a few months ago.. that thing.. aku rasa cam that thing kejar aku. skang.. aku rasa cam… sape tak takut mati kan? takut. cuak gile. smlm baca schubert serenade by hlovate. sedih cite tuh. pasal death org tersayang. so takut aku makin menjadi2. aku bayangkan… erhm.. bila aku ingat je, trus je xtertahan… tumpah terus ‘air terjun’ aku. crying… aku takut sesangat. so that i’m trying… b4 this pon dah try. lepas yg n3 kehilang rindu aku tuh.. mmg aku dah ready… tp lepas peristiwa ahad 25 dis 2005.. aku makin tekad. tambah plak ketakutan aku tu. aku lakukan sungguh2 tuk jadik baik. tak the best pon at least better than b4. nak jadi baik mmg hard. kena istiqamah betul2.
so… aku skang nih dalam fasa perubahan bak kata fuad. (sorry.. ehhe) tp mmg gitu lah. changing. perubahan besar sdg aku cuba lakukan ke atas diriku. whatever…
mende yg nak di flashback nye… erm… aper ek? adeyh… rasanya dah cukop lengkap kat atas tuh.. haha….
erm… aku wat blogdrive… taun ni start gune streamyx… lagik.. i’m changing. hahahaha~ adess… sedar diri sket. dah sedar dah xleh main2 cam adik2 aku dah… ade tggjwb…. br sedar ade tgg jwb kat atas bahu nieh…
erk… rasa cam dah xnak sambong… oh ya.. skola dah nak bukak! nnt first day aku update,,, cite ’bout skola~

wassalam!

keRLipaN ciNta (”,)

Filed under: lyrics — ammarhabibahlovelavender at 7:29 am on Friday, December 30, 2005
Hidayah .. Kerlipan Cipta Cintaku
Harum Rembulan Mawar
Dingin Dihakis Keseorangan ….

Aku masih menghitung diri ..
Kesiangan yang panjang
Ingin mengisi hati

Padamu kasih
satukan aku
Dengan rahmatmu
Dengan Kalimah
Malam Siangku
Berliku liku
Duri Dugaan
Siratan Cinta

Biar di jemala mentari
Biar di bahu gunung berapi
pasrahku abadi untukmu ..untukmu

Ku kembara setia disisinya …
Ku inginkan Bahagia abadi
ku impikan sentosa dibawah naungannya
selamanya

a story…

Filed under: story — ammarhabibahlovelavender at 7:26 am on Friday, December 30, 2005

Dia rasa diri Dia byk sgt dosa. dosa ngan TUHAN, mama, papa, ustazah2, ustaz2, adik beradik, saudara2, kawan2, binatang dan ngan diri sendiri. Dia rasa macam tak nak dah mengadap muka orang lain. muka diri sendiri pun kalau boleh, tak nak tengok kat cermin atau mana2 yang boleh nampak. memang malu tahap maxima la bila Kamu bagi tau tadi. tu yang Dia buat ikrar tu. memang rasa muka ni cam getah yang tebal tu. MALU! gedik. galox. perkataan yang cukup Dia anti. Dia tak sedar yang dua2 tu ada pada Dia. dah overboard punya. Dia tak sangka plak yang ustazah tegur2 tu, memang betul. Dia memang tak sedar diri!
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masa datang skola tadi, ustazah dekat2 habis tazkirah dah. so, Dia blurr ape tazkirah hari ni. Dia tau pasal ape cuma isinya yang Dia tak tau. lepas tu kawan Dia datang citer. maka tahulah Dia. lepas tu, masa tengahari, masa tu lebih kurang dekat2 pukul 1. Dia gi tandas. balik dari tandas, 3 kawan Dia duk masak ‘ketupat’. Dia mula2 dengar je. lepas tu, jadi join jugak walaupun tak tau ape punca ‘ketupat’ tu direbus. bile ketupat tu dekat2 hangus la kot, Dia tanye la camne ley masak ‘ketupat’ ni. diorang pun bagi tau, ustazah dtg tazkirah pasal akhlaq girls… masa tu Dia kat tandas tadi. so, ‘ketupat’ Dia dan kawan2nya dah hangus over2 la. makin hangus. tambah pula dgn pdgn buruk mereka. sampaikan masa b4 solat pun teruskan memasak. Bila lepas solat, Dia salam ngan ustazah. Dia cuit 1 kawan Dia. tapi… tak tau la kawan Dia tu sedar tak, tapi yang pasti kawan Dia tu tak salam ngan ustazah. kawan Dia tu pandang blkg dan.. ntah.
balik dr skolah, Dia citer kat Kamu masa tengok tv. Kamu marah kat Dia. sbb mmg betul apa yang ustazah kata tu. mmg Dia dan kawan2 galox overboard! mmg memalukan la. what a shame la bila fikir balik. macam mana ye nak minta maaf nagn ustazah? Dia cukup takut. dah la ngan mama papa pun Dia tak baik mana. ngan guru2 pun tak baik. teringat ustaz ckp, ‘bile kite sere sikit pun ngan guru kita, ilmu tu tak berkat.’ kalo ngan mama papa? Dia tak nak gitu. Dia harap sgt tak gitu. kawan2 Dia yang lain tenang ke skarang ni?
Dia disuruh dtg ke rumah mak su utk menemankan mak su. esok pagi pak su sampai la. pak su gi n9 sbb ade keje sket.
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masa mukhayyam semlm, Dia sampai lewat kat skolah. pukul 7.45 br sampai. masa tu plaja2 nak gi kantin. sampai lewat tu gara-gara Dia la. Dia ngade sgt semlm. mama nak order nasi kat restoran ‘Ali, Dia tak nak. nak yang dekat kedai runcit Rosli. mama tak stop kat situ. sampai depan SK Melati rasanya, kereta mula slow. Dia bengang jgak. tapi Dia yakin mesti ade hikmah atau pengajaran disebalik perangai Dia tu. memang ade pengajaran —-> ikut je mama nye keputusan! setengah jam Dia terperangkap ngan jem kat jambatan tu. mula2 ingat nak beli nasi Dia kat kg. damai. tapi tak leh sbb bila sampai round about tu, jam teruk kalo nak gi kg. damai. so lalu jalan yahya. gi restoran Ikmal. lepas tu gi skolah. sampai je plaja2 sdg gi kantin. semua dah siap solat. Dia solat lepas semua plaja gi kantin. masa solat tu, Dia tak dapat tahan air mata Dia. Dia prasan ade sorg bdak kat pintu, tapi Dia concentrate gak kat solat. nak tahan pun dah tumpah. usai solat, Dia nangis lagi lagi hingga usai do’a, br reda sikit. Dia sujud syukur. dah sujud, Dia bgn lipat telekung. bdak kat pintu tadi datang tolong lipat sejadah yang Dia guna. rupa2nya seme plaja pegi kantin sbb br nak makan. masa nak gi, Dia tgk cermin dulu. hehe… Dia lap2 mata dulu. pastu masuk kantin, org dah selesai makan and sdg makan.

hehe…

believe it or not : you were born muslim!

Filed under: story — ammarhabibahlovelavender at 10:00 am on Monday, December 26, 2005

By: Umm Rashid

What would you call a religion whose beliefs, practices and followers are being bashed and bad-mouthed in practically every sphere of activity, in almost every corner of the globe, yet it attracts ever-increasing numbers of people?

A Paradox? A Miracle ? Or simply, The Truth: Islaam.

The fact that Islaam is the fastest growing religion in the world today, is proof that our Creator has taken it upon Himself to perfect the Truth that He sent all His prophets and messengers with — from Aadam [AS] to Muhammad [SAW].

Studies conducted in the West show that the sheer number of new Muslims is changing the demographic profile of countries all over the world, and not all of them are born into Muslim families. With some 6 million adherents in the United States, Islam is said to be the nation’s fastest-growing religion. One expert estimates that 25,000 people a year become Muslims in this country; some clerics say they have seen conversion rates quadruple since Sept 11.

Ironically for a religion that is routinely bashed for “subjugating” and “oppressing” its female followers, the number of female reverts to Islaam outnumber the males 4:1!

The fact that more and more people are finding their way to Islaam, notwithstanding the relentless propaganda, deliberate misinformation and outright prejudice against it, never ceases to amaze me.

How do these people navigate in the darkness to find the light of Islaam in spite of all the obstacles in the way?

The answer is that our Creator has granted each one of us a guiding light — a pure, undefiled innate nature called the fitrah. Unlike Christians who believe in the doctrine of Original Sin and assert that each baby is born tainted with the sin of Adam’s disobedience to God, Muslims believe that every child is born into a state of purity where it recognizes its Creator and is naturally subservient to His laws.

In his book The Fundamentals of Islaamic Monotheism, Abu Ameenah Bilaal Philips writes: Just as a child’s body submits to the physical laws which Allaah has put in nature, its soul also submits naturally to the fact that Allaah is its Lord and Creator. But its parents try to make it follow their own way and the child is not strong enough in the early stages of its life to resist or oppose its parents. The religion which the child follows at this stage is one of custom and upbringing and Allaah does not hold it to account for this religion.

When the child matures in youth and clear proofs of the falsehood of its religion are brought to it, the adult must now follow the religion of knowledge and reason. At this point the devils try their best to encourage him to stay as he is or to go further astray. Evils are made pleasing to him and he must now live in the midst of a struggle between his innate pure nature and his desires in order to find the right road.

If he chooses to follow his innate nature, his fitrah, Allaah will help him overcome his desires even though it may take most of his life to escape, for many people enter Islaam in their old age.

The Qur’aan also points to this phenomenon, where every soul that has been created is asked Who their Lord is, and they testify that it is none other than Allaah before they are born into the world.

When your Lord drew forth from the loins of the children of Aadam their descendants and made them testify concerning themselves. Saying: Am I not your Lord? They said: “Yes, we testify to it.” (This) in case you say on the Day of Judgement, “We were unaware of this.” Or in case you say: It was our ancestors who made partners (with Allaah) and we are only their descendants…[Surah Al-A’raaf 7:172-173]

Explaining this verse, the Prophet [SAW] said: When Allaah created Aadam [AS] , He took a covenant from him …then He extracted from him all of his descendants who would be born until the end of the world, generation after generation and spread them out in front of Him in order to take a covenant from them.

He spoke to them face to face saying: Am I not your Lord? And they all replied: Yes, we testify to it.

Allaah then explained why He had all of mankind bear witness that He was their Creator and the only true God worthy of worship. He said: That was in case you (mankind) should say on the Day of Resurrection, “Surely we were unaware of all this. We had no idea that You were our God.” [Silsilah al ahadeeth as Saheehah, Narrated by ibn Abbaas, collected by Imaam Ahmad]

This is the reason why people who adopt Islaam are said to revert instead of convert, because they are going back to their original nature — the one they were naturally created with — which is automatically aligned with the Universe, its Creator and His Laws; as opposed to simply exchanging one set of beliefs for another.

Reverts to Islaam testify that this inner inclination to search for the Truth, to know and follow it is a major factor in their adopting the faith. It is interesting to see some of the reasons cited by reverts for adopting Islaam:

Islaamic Monotheism
“The Christian sect of Athanasians insistently inculcates the tenet that Christianity is based on a belief in three gods (Trinity), that a slightest doubt as to this belief will lead one to immediate perdition; and that a person who wishes to attain salvation in this world and the next should definitely hold a belief in the three gods: God, the Son of God, and the Holy Ghost.

When I became a Muslim, I received a letter, which said: “By becoming a Muslim you have damned yourself to perdition. No one can save you. For you deny the divinity of God.” The poor man [who wrote that letter] thought that I no longer believed in God, not knowing that when Jesus had begun to preach, he stated the unity of God and he never claimed to be His son.

[Lord Headley al-Farooq; British diplomat, engineer]

An answer for every question:
“I would always search for causes and purposes for everything. I would anticipate logical explanations for them. On the other hand, the explanations provided by priests and other Christian men of religion did not satisfy me. Most of the time, instead of giving satisfactory answers to my questions, they would dismiss the matter with evasive prevarications such as, “We cannot understand these things. They are divine secrets” and “They are beyond the grasp of the human mind.”

Upon this I decided to study, on the one hand, Oriental religions, and on the other hand, books written by famous philosophers. The books written by these philosophers always dealt with such subjects as protoplasms, atoms, molecules, and particles, and did not even touch on reflections such as “What becomes of the human soul?” “Where does the soul go after death?” “How should we discipline our souls in this world?”

The Islamic religion, on the other hand, treated the human subject not only within the corporeal areas, but also along the spiritual extensions. Therefore, I chose Islam not because I had lost my way, or only because Christianity had incurred my displeasure, or as a result of sudden decision, but, on the contrary, after very minutely studying it and becoming thoroughly convinced about its greatness, singularity, solemnity and perfection

[Muhammad Alexander Russell Webb; American diplomat, author]

Direct relationship with one’s Creator:
Now I realize I can get in direct contact with God, unlike Christianity or any other religion. As one Hindu lady told me, “You don’t understand the Hindus. We believe in one God; we use these objects (idols) to merely concentrate.” What she was saying was that in order to reach God, one has to create associates, that are idols for the purpose. But Islam removes all these barriers.

[Yusuf Islaam, formerly Cat Stevens]

Universality:
Islam is a religion that belongs not only to the Arabs but to the entire humanity. This universal quality presents a sharp contrast with the Judaic religion, whose holy book always refers to the God of Israel.

One more thing that I love in Islam is that this religion recognizes all the prophets, makes no distinction between them and treats the believers of other religions with compassion.

[Mahmud Gunnar Ahmad, Swedish Muslim]

Absolute equality before God, extended brotherhood:
There were tens of thousands of pilgrims, from all over the world. They were of all colors, from blue-eyed blondes to black-skinned Africans. But we were all participating in the same ritual, displaying a spirit of unity and brotherhood that my experiences in America had led me to believe never could exist between the white and non-white.

America needs to understand Islam, because this is the one religion that erases from its society the race problem. Throughout my travels in the Muslim world, I have met, talked to, and even eaten with people who in America would have been considered white - but the white attitude was removed from their minds by the religion of Islam. I have never before seen sincere and true brotherhood practiced by all colors together, irrespective of their color.

You may be shocked by these words coming from me. But on this pilgrimage, what I have seen, and experienced, has forced me to rearrange much of my thought-patterns previously held, and to toss aside some of my previous conclusions. This was not too difficult for me. Despite my firm convictions, I have always been a man who tries to face facts, and to accept the reality of life as new experience and new knowledge unfolds it. I have always kept an open mind, which is necessary to the flexibility that must go hand in hand with every form of intelligent search for truth.

During the past eleven days here in the Muslim world, I have eaten from the same plate, drunk from the same glass, and slept on the same rug - while praying to the same God - with fellow Muslims, whose eyes were the bluest of blue, whose hair was the blondest of blond, and whose skin was the whitest of white. And in the words and in the deeds of the white Muslims, I felt the same sincerity that I felt among the black African Muslims of Nigeria, Sudan and Ghana. We were truly all the same (brothers) - because their belief in one God had removed the white from their minds, the white from their behavior, and the white from their attitude.

[Letter written from Makkah, by Malcolm X]

Purity of prayer:
If I were asked what impressed me most in the religion of Islam, I would probably say the prayers, because prayers in Christianity are used wholly in begging God (through Jesus Christ) to grant worldly favours, whereas in Islam they ar used to give praise and thanks to Almighty God for all His blessings since He knows what is necessary for our welfare and grants us what we need without our asking it.

[Cecilia Mahmuda Cannolly, Australian Muslim]

Women’s rights and status:
No doubt, influenced by the usual condemnation of Islam from Christian pulpits on the subject, I picked on polygamy. At last I thought I had something; obviously Western monogamy was an improvement on this old system. I talked of it to my Muslim friend. He illustrated with the aid of newspaper articles how much true monogamy there was in England, and convinced me that a limited polygamy was the answer to the secret unions that are becoming so distressingly common in the West. My own common sense could see that, particularly after a war, when women of a certain age group far outnumber men, a percentage of them are destined to remain spinsters. Did God give them life for that? I recollect that on the radio programme known as `Dear Sir’ an unmarried English girl had called for lawful polygamy, saying she would prefer a shared married life rather than the loneliness to which she seemed to be destined. In Islam no one is forced into a polygamous marriage, but in a perfect religion, the opportunity must be there to meet those cases where it is necessary.

[Mavis B Jolly, UK]

Belief in the Qur’aan as Divine Revelation:
I read as much of the Qur’aan as I could. I was immersed in it. As I read the verses in English, I repeated to myself over and over again, this is what I have always thought and believed. What kind of book was this? Before long I was reading the book and crying, and reading and crying… it was as if something had overtaken me… I forgot what I was looking for in particular, however when I came upon the verses in Surah Baqarah 122-141 regarding Prophet Ibrahim (AS) I had found my answer.

I had been searching for Isma’il (as), son of Prophet Ibrahim and his wife Hajarah, who had been missing from the Hebrew brothers story. In those verses I found the truth of religion… They say: Become Jews or Christians if ye would be guided (to salvation). Say thou: Nay! (I would rather) the religion of Abraham the True, and he joined not gods with Allah. Say ye: We believe in Allah, and the revelation given to us, and to Abraham, Isma’il, Isaac, Jacob and the Tribes, and that given to Moses and Jesus, and that given to (all) the Prophets from their Lord; We make no difference between one another of them: and we submit to Allah." (2:135-136) As I continued to read and cry, I became intent upon finding someone who could connect me with others who believed in this book!

[K H Abdul Lateef, USA]

The personal example of the Prophet Muhammad [SAW]:
I accepted Islam because I admired the Prophet Muhammad.[SAW]. I had quite a number of Muslim friends in Zanzibar, who gave me Islamic books, which I read in secrecy from my family. I became a Muslim despite the remonstrances of my family and the oppressions of the priests of Parsee religion, which had been my religion until that time. I held fast to my religion and resisted against all sorts of threats. Now I love Allaah and His last Prophet Muhammad [SAW] more than my life

[Faruq B Karai, Zanzibar]

Islaam withstands scrutiny and encourages reasoning:
Instead of asking a follower to believe in its precepts just ”because” or someone asks them to, Islaam encourages people to think for themselves, reflect on the signs of God in Creation and within their own selves. Little wonder then that a sizable number of reverts are thinking people: scientists, astronomers, philosophers, doctors.

As created beings who can neither grant life nor ward off death, we owe it to ourselves and The One Who Created Us to discover the Truth, to follow it and to facilitate others to do the same.

[Source: All quotes from "Why I chose Islaam" and "Islaam: My choice"]

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Filed under: me~ — ammarhabibahlovelavender at 9:52 am on Monday, December 26, 2005

assalamu’alaikum~~
muehehhe… aiseyh… hurnm… ape nak tulis??
hurnm… semalam xon9. sbb the day before semlm tu… aku on sampai kol 3 pagi rasanya. hehehe… biasa la tu. kira berjaya la… semlm xon… hr ni on pulak pkol… abis cite korea ntv7. heuheuheu… lebih 24 hours la tuh… skang plak 0127… hahahha… =D… xpe… nnt bukak skola sure da tak sempat nak ingat mende nih. nak rindu2 komputer. hahahhaha…. nak rindu2 frensta… nak rindu blog… nak rindu YM ngan IRc… heuheuhe.. sape laaa yg ade masuk masa skola.. dah la kawan2 aku ramai yg duk hostel.. kepingin gak nak duk hostel. hahahahahahaha! hostel… best kan. ade timetable… sure patuh timetable tu… sbb kalo tak.. warden marah. ahhahaha… iya ker?? hahahha…
hernm… aku jugak cukup bimbang + takut + gementar + gabra + cuak = pasal PMR. heuheuheuhue…. lagi-lagilah aku cuak bila timbul ’bout 2cent. ingat xnak tulis bout tusen2 nih. tapi xpe. kena luah gak. hahahaha… kengkwn aku… kebykannya… samada kwn skola… chat.. kebanyakannya masuk 2cent. hehehe… erm.. aku jadi cuak bile sebut mende nih.. actually.. cuak tu.. aku xsure plak meaning nya. hahaha… knape cuak? sbb… sbb… kalo masuk 2cent tu kira dah ade preapration la kan. aku pon bleh je buat tanpa masuk 2cent. erm… however.. aku kan… aku kan.. ahhaha… biasa aaa.. bdak2.. malas doo.. hahaha… hr tu.. jumpa kengkwn2 yg skola… ade la tersebut pasal 2cent. aku… aku,,, erk.. uncomfortable arr kan. ntah le. why should i feelin like that or like this?! hahaha… derang citer la kan.. suasana blaja… huhuhu… aku.. diam jek. tak terkata ape. mmg memula derang sampai aku diam je. tatau nak kata ape. xpnah2 aku rasa camtu. mmg diam tahap… diam betul2 diam. senyap jee… senyum je paling tidak. positive change i guess… hahahaha… next week kat skola camne laa… tempat duduk. erm.. nak duk ngan sape? haiyo… hahaha… nape la aku nak jadikan mende tu susah. wat senang jadi la senang… huhuhu… hahaha… don’t think ’bout school yet~~~ kite cuti lagik nih. hahahahhahaha….
wassalam! may ALLAH bless us~ ooo… my LORD… forgive me~~ huhuhu…

ciTa-ciTa dan ciNta (”,)

Filed under: lyrics — ammarhabibahlovelavender at 9:11 am on Monday, December 26, 2005

Duhai temanku
Mengapa dipisahkannya
Cita-cita dan cinta
Keimanan itu akan menyatukan ia
Jika kita mencuba

Di mana citamu…Di mana cintamu
Keduanya perlu…Kau binalah kerana Tuhanmu
Agar keduanya berpadu

Cinta yang hakiki…Lahir di hati suci
Demi iman dan Islam
Jangan kau pula pisahkannya
Antara cinta-cita dan cinta

Cinta yang sejati…Bukannya ilusi mimpi
Usaha seiring doa
Kernaa iman dan Islam
Harus kita menunaikannya

Cintailah citamu
Binalah kerana Tuhanmu

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Filed under: me~ — ammarhabibahlovelavender at 7:42 am on Saturday, December 24, 2005

hahaha…
assalamu’alaikum to readers… heuheue…
teramatlah sukanya aku hari ni… erm..
sambung gotong royong sket… hr khamis… hahaha… aku gi lambat sket sbb tunggu adekku yg sorg tu bgn tido… my mum said, "kalo tak tunggu… tak pegilah jwbnya bdak sorg tuh"  huehuehue… sampai2 tu… memula tlg mlmh sket… lepas tu rehat… duk saje… xde keje… erm.. actually… tak cari keje… hahahaha…. well.. well… lg pulak hr bdak PMR amik result… mitsuilah calon pertama sampai… and… die nye result. excellent. ade 4 (dr 17 ker bape ntah) org 9A’s skola aku… erm… lepas tu lepak2… tgk bdak2 amik result… hahaha… sorg senior… parents die gi haji… die gi amik sensorg… masa mudir nak bg, mudir kata, "sikit je lagi… kena usaha.." punye la suspen ayat… hahaha… lepas tu die pon bukak… ramai arr yg mengerumuni dia.. termasuk aku.. hehehe… 9A’s arr…. hahaha… mudir tu saja wat suspen.. hahaha…
pkol 12.30 semua org mula beredar… aku pun tercongok la tunggu ayahku dtg ambik selepas menelefon… ade la dalam sejam lebih aku tunggu.. heuheuhe… nak merajuk gak.. tp.. alerr.. cam xbiasa plak. pasnih bukak skola pon akan ada la hari2 yg mcm tuh. euheuhue… lepas amik aku and my sis ayahku menuju ke an-nisa’. haha… mak aku nak wat medical check-up. memula ayah drop ummi kat pintu… org panggil ape ntah. tp tpt nak check up tu lah… then ayah park kete… lepas tu ayah kata, "gi lah masuk teman ummi." aku pun segera mengajak adikku masuk. hahaha… masuk tu aku baca la majalah2 and paper yg ada. masa duk baca paper tu tetibe dtg la seorg kakak yg kerja kat situ. dia kata, "nombo telefon?" aku nih tercengang. ha? tetibe jek… ummi ku berpaling. aku jungkit bahu jek. adikku tersengih2. hahaha… apo la.. b4 die dtg mintak nombo tu die dah dtg kat aku… heuhe… rupanya empunya diri yg perempuan tu cari duk kat luar. adess.. adik aku usik aku.. "bile?" hahahaha….
disbbkan terlalu lama menunggu ummi wat check-up… masa tu doc xder… lama la tunggu jadinya. kebetulan b4 balik tu mudir bagi nasi satu bungkus. hahaha… aku pon ajak adik aku makan dalam kete. muehehehe… bila masuk and bukak nasi tuh, ayahku berkata, "busuklah" hhahaha… kitorg kata la nasi laa… heuheuhue… ayah tanya, "tak leh sabar balik dulu ker?" erm… aku and adik ku sengih jek. hueheuhe… ^-^ lepas tu masuk balik kat ummi. masa tu Mawi duk nyanyi aduh saliha kat tv3 WHI. hahaha…
aku yg xleh duk diam… ternampak ade satu kad pesakit kat atas kaunter. aku gi tgk. mak aku punye arr… aku pon bukak. tgk ada gamba… erm.. yg scan baby tuh. aku tgk… erm… xnampak rupa baby pon.. ummi xpnah tunjuk plak…  hahaha… tetibe ummi nampak. ummi larang aku. haha… aku pon patuh. lepas tu… mak aku dipanggil tuk check up. lepas tu balik. aku tanya ummi, "bakpe yah tak nampak ape2 pon dalam gamba tuh. biasa jek."  ummi kata… erm.. kena doc tunjuk ker ape ntah. mmg kite tgk biasa. heuheuheu…
ape2 pon… yg aku xleh lupa kat an-nisa’ tuh… tersilap org. hahahaha….

erm…. oh ya. result ayah dah amik. ayah tanya, "gane maths buleh C?" hahaha… aku kata dah xleh jwb. heuheuhe… ayah kata, "kalo maths leh jwb… soklan lain sng je jwb" hehehe.. aku tersipu sendiri. wakakakka~ pastuh ayah kenakan aku masa dalam kete. hahahaha… malu jek. hahahhaha… rasa kerdil je diri ini.(mmg aku seorg yg kerdil dan hina dihadapanNYA (",) )

huehuehue…. ape agik arr? oh ya.. line internet umah aku ade probs semlam. punye la aku bimbang. dah la malam b4 semalam aku xingat nak on sbb tido.. hahah… tido 12 jam!!! eh… 13jam!!! hahaha… shehehe… Ino.. fatin.. ahahh… mlm semalam dah borng xleh on9… aku baca history yg MSN punye.. hahaha… hingga hr nih. kira 24 hours arr… erm… memula tadik sesaje je bukak yahoo!mail… tetibe… eh.. inbox e-mail aku. hahahhaa… sengih manjang sampai skang… hahahahaha… praise be to HIM. dah bila line OK. aku suh adik2 aku gi sujud syukur. heuheuhe… ^-^
oh ya.. semalam nenek aku ade wat solat hajat. aku pon gi lah tolong2. basuh pinggan mangkuk cawan gelas… hahaha… lucky… xde yg prang~!!!! kakakak… ^-^

aNtara duA ciNta (”,)

Filed under: lyrics — ammarhabibahlovelavender at 7:15 am on Saturday, December 24, 2005
apa yang ada jarang disyukuri
apa yang tiada sering dirisaukan
nikmat yang dikecap baru kan terasa bila hilang
apa yang diburu timbul rasa jemu
bila sudah di dalam genggaman

dunia ibarat air laut
diminum hanya menambah haus
nafsu bagaikan fatamorgana
di padang pasir

panas yang membahang disangka air
dunia dan nafsu bagai bayang-bayang
dilihat ada ditangkap hilang

Tuhan.. leraikanlah dunia
yang mendiam di dalam hatiku
kerana di situ tidak ku mampu
mengumpul dua cinta
hanya cintaMu ku harap tumbuh
dibajai bangkai dunia yang kubunuh

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Filed under: me~ — ammarhabibahlovelavender at 8:44 am on Wednesday, December 21, 2005

salamun ‘alaik…
tetibe rasa ringan jek tangan nak update blog yang satu nih. just nak citer hari nih ade gotong royong kat skola. esok ade agik. esok… esok kite cite. hahaha.. hari nih… sampai je kat skolah, aku naik atas. memula sapu lantai kelas form one. aku and k.ae-syah. lepas siap sapu satu tingkat tuh, kena mop plak. aku and k.ae-syah bekerjasama dengan jayanya mengemop lantai. ^-^. lepas tu mu’allimah panggil rehat dulu. huahuahua…. jus mango and teh. ade ubi kayu rebus. ade kuih2 lain gak. lepas tu sambung agik mop. lepas tu minum air agik. aku xamik teh. heuheue… aku amik jus mango. lepas tu ikat buku2 yang nk gi recycle. huhuhu…
jumpa cikgu2. cikgu malek tertukar aku and my sis~ huehuehue… tetibe tanya aku nanges masa pekse.. pekse?? huahuahua… pastuh ustaz faisal. lain la… huahuahua… erm… ramai la jgak cikgu taun ni stay next year. praise be to ALLAH. i’m glad to know that <<ino kata kite kena brani speakin.. hak hak hak] cikgu hisyam berenti gi jadi pegawai kaji cuaca kat KL. next year katanya 4 org cikgu baru. heuheuhe… cikgu yg mengaja science form3 cikgu baru. so… tiap2 taun tuka cekgu tuk subjek science. i think… seme subjek gituh. kakaka… xpe.. as long… selagi ade cikgu slagi tu boleh blaja.. muahahah~ xpasal2.
tadik budak abis SPM ade dtg gak. derang datang dengan rambut zaman 80-an. wakakak… tgk derang terlintas kat mind aku nih gamba my father 80-an dulu. wakakaka…
esok sambung agik… hueheuheu…

kembara ciNta (”,)

Filed under: lyrics — ammarhabibahlovelavender at 8:11 am on Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Telah Ditentukan Fitrah Insani
Ingin Bercinta Dan Dicintai
Cinta Pada Tuhan
Cinta Pada Insan
Demi Kebahagiaan Kesejahteraan

Namun Cinta Penuh Kembara
Mudah Menyimpang Bahagia Di Cita
Tapi Sengsara

Cinta Yang Di Mata Nafsu Melulu
Bahagianya Sementara
Manis Bahasa Kosong Dan Palsu

Oh…Kembalilah
Pada Cinta Hakiki
Cinta Pada Illahi
Cinta Fitrah Lagi Murni
Itulah Cinta Yang Abadi

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